Reaching for the Guiding Light

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Three topics in here. One, about photos; two, about my life and realizations; and three, about Guimaras. I miss blogging, hence I'm here again!

Photographs and Blogging

Just about a month or two ago, I declared to make this a sort of photo blog to document my life. At least once a week, an entry with a photograph and maybe some text too to say about my life. Except for announcements and bulletins, a picture must be present.

However, I don't have any recent photograph to post here for now. Yes, I have some photos in my phone, but don't have the means to upload here (I'm using the office computer and internet). I need a memory stick (the computer has a card reader), but haven't bought one yet. Yes, there is a USB cable supplied with my camera phone, but I don't want to install my phone application here.

Anyway, I searched my Flickr account and settled for that picture. I feel it fits my second topic for this entry. By the way, my account's weird as of this writing. Old sets from my old free pro account appeared, but since I'm enjoying a free Flickr account and I already got a thousand (maybe I'm exaggerating) photos uploaded but only 200 will appear, those sets are empty. It's just weird.

Okay, I miss writing here. I'm typing too much again.

Reaching for the Guiding Light

After weeks (or even months?!) of contemplating about my life, I have finally reached a point where I am comfortable with myself. Those weeks of contemplation (and meditation??) were really confusing. Now, I'm confident to say that I am (somehow) at peace with my self.

"Defining" what I want to do with my life has been frustrating and extremely difficult. What I found out, though, was that when I put "money" in the equation, and some "typical expectations from the society", everything became a mess. It's just not me to be money-motivated, and it so unfair to me to live up to "what I think" other people expects from me.

Hence, I now write what I want. Although I can't tell what my passion is. Probably living my life to the fullest is my true passion.

I'm still an idealist. However, I do not know where to channel that energy of idealism (which sometimes wanes by the way, especially when I'm distracted by other superficial things). So I reassessed my interests. I want to teach. I realized I wanted to teach back in second or third year college (about five years ago). But one crazy teacher doubted my sincerity. I doubted that desire in the process.

I want to teach, but I want to teach to people who aren't so blessed to have a good education, but honestly, not the very marginalized people. I even want to teach high school students. I want to inspire them and be a guiding light to them. How idealist.

Besides, I hate research. Not teaching in big universities would complement that.

I also want to travel and explore the beauty of my country. Now, this is expensive. Okay, there are budget trips, but too many budget trips is still costly. How do I deal with that? I'm starting to take charge of my personal finances. Not starve myself, but spend and save strategically.

I also want to help save our environment. For that, I have resolved that I need not join environmental NGO's. I just have to live that life with a conscious effort to do my part in preserving our dear Mother Earth. Still, volunteering is great.

So for now, I'm living each day at a time. I'm trying to celebrate each moment. I'm really not a long-term planner, so it works for me. At least I have some vision of what I want in my life. I'll just do my best every day.

I'll do my best here in my current work. I'll build relationships. I'll optimize my time (how so econ). I'll smile.

I celebrate. I laugh. I live my life. :)

Guimaras Trip Next Week!

Not yet so excited, but looking forward to it. I'm going to Guimaras next week with some of my officemates. Yey!

A great time to take photos of the wonders of my country, snapshots of my life, pictures of the people I am with. A great time, too, to make friends. :)

I just hope for peace in our country.